⁶It is not as though God’s word had failed. For not all who are descended from Israel are Israel. ⁷Nor because they are his descendants are they all Abraham’s children. On the contrary, “It is through Isaac that your offspring will be reckoned.”^{[b] 8}In other words, it is not the natural children who are God’s children, but it is the children of the promise who are regarded as Abraham’s offspring. ⁹For this was how the promise was stated: “At the appointed time I will return, and Sarah will have a son.”^[c]

 ¹⁰Not only that, but Rebekah’s children had one and the same father, our father Isaac. ¹¹Yet, before the twins were born or had done anything good or bad—in order that God’s purpose in election might stand: ¹²not by works but by him who calls—she was told, “The older will serve the younger.”^{[d] 13}Just as it is written: “Jacob I loved, but Esau I hated.”^[e]

 ¹⁴What then shall we say? Is God unjust? Not at all! ¹⁵For he says to Moses,
   ”I will have mercy on whom I have mercy,
      and I will have compassion on whom I have compassion.”^{[f] 16}It does not, therefore, depend on man’s desire or effort, but on God’s mercy. ¹⁷For the Scripture says to Pharaoh: “I raised you up for this very purpose, that I might display my power in you and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth.”^{[g] 18}Therefore God has mercy on whom he wants to have mercy, and he hardens whom he wants to harden.”

Romans 9:1-18

Have you ever paid attention to this verse? Or have you looked over it, didn’t understand it, and went on to Romans 10.

We discussed this at church on wednesday. It’s been forever since I’ve blogged here, because no one reads it. This blog is so I can figure things out in MY head. Because at the moment, I’m completely confused on the subject. BUT I now am a member of First Baptist Church of Kountze Texas. (Yes, the one that burnt down a while back). So last Wednesday my youth minister, Justin, was talking about Romans 9. And what I got out of is was that I’ve been lied to, basically my whole life. God does hate, though you may think he doesn’t because “God is love” But my bible tells me otherwise. It says clearly “Esau I hated”.

What Justin explained was, God hates the people that will never follow him. Which kind of makes sense because he is all knowing, right? He knows who will follow him and who will not, he has chosen the people. Then that brings us to the concept of predestination. Which is where I get confused. If you keep reading to Romans 10, this whole thing seems contradictory, because it says basically that by our confession, we are saved. The point of Roman’s nine is that it is by God’s choice that we are saved. Because God knows which of us will follow him, He has chosen us first. It is by his grace that we are saved, not by our choice.

I’m completely confused, still. I can’t make sense of it all. I can’t just trust what he says, I have to investigate myself. Or I could be completely misled, and if that were the case, I would need to bring it to his attention. Or say what I know.  So, what I am thinking is, God already knows who will choose him, and he HATES the people who will never choose him, the people who basically ARE sin. And he hates sin right? That’s my justification of it.

yeah………………………………….

so i just got back from student life camp, it was a very life changing experience, my and some friends are sponsering a child, her name is rosmery, i feel really cool for doing it.. well i havent really told my mom yet but its to late, she has to say yes now lol jk, i have some money right now for that, anyway.. this is getting me thinking,

almost every movie i see on tv has some sex influence on it, even if its like teenagers, im so sick of seeing people my age get pregnant, if your not mature enough to go into a store and buy condoms your not mature enough to have a child… thats just it… its disgusting, i just found out another girl in my grade is preggo…  people are such hypocrits, her myspace says all this stuff about God and stuff, but right now shes probably our bangin her boyfriend… its disgusting, where is the child innocence? your still in school, your still a child, a child isnt suppose to be raising her own child…

she claims to be this all out christian, but is she was wouldnt she know that it says clearly in the bible not to have sex before marriage? she’s too young to be even thinking about it.. we’re all too young and mature to be thinking about sex let alone having it… people piss me off…

teens get influenced that it is okay to have sex as long as you wear a condom, that is so wrong!  what is wrong with this world?? Why is it so normal to have sex as like a 15 yr old now? why is it so wrong to be a virgin?

i remember being in class one day and hearing a conversation, these people were asking my friend is she was a virgin, she told them yes, they were like WHAT!? WHY!? she was like because she doesnt want to, its wrong, and she doesnt beleive in sex b4 marriage and at that young.. then after that me and her were talking and she said “i dont know why they think im sheltered or wrong for staying a virgin, what their doing is wrong not what im doing” ..

why cant all people be like that, it pisses me off!

but still my school is gay, they didnt even give me a warning  just a summon to come to court, but im thinking i can get out of it, i havent used my parent notes, and i can use my dads death certificate for the 2 days i missed after he died, because those 2 were for that reason, i needed some time off, and yeah it probably wont be too late, and i dont think they can hold me back from coming to camp or church, anyway steve fee is going to be at the camp we’re going to this year, along with david crowder band and leeland!!  and this preacher dude named Louie Giglio? or something like that… its in Gatlinburg Tennessee…

but on a brighter side of things, i have an amazing boyfriend his name is Michael Hall we went bowling yesterday with the band, for the 8th graders who are coming in band (im sooo happy i wont be a fish (freshman) anymore)  and it was sooo much fun, even tho i lost :/ i was messin around mostly, it was just to have fun anyway

and im over my crush, ive been crushing on this guy since december 17th… during the cinderella play, he played the steward, and i kinda just realized i liked him… but he didnt like me back but i couldnt get over him, i kept thinking maybe one day he would like me, then i realized i HAVE  to move on, im better than that anyway, but yeah.. we’ll never be together, and im okay with that.. hes a senior and im a freshamn… today is his last day of school… and next week is mine, im coming to school again next year and he’s going tot UT.. so yeah anyway, that was a waste of my life… :/

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It’s empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I’m too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I’d do anything for a smile, holding you ’til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don’t want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I’m too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It’s empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live In
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of Death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I’m too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It’s empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don’t wanna Die alone without you here,
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Whoah, so I never want to leave you, and the memories of Us to see
I beg don’t leave me

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It’s empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don’t wanna Die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then Continues in the background]

I stand here alone
Falling away from me, no chance to get back home [x2

so im taking guitar lessons.. this is who is teaching me im soo happy and i have a HUGE crush on him… he knows it but doesnt care so w/e anyway he is really good well im going to casa ole’ bye [mmm good texmex]