i havent posted anything on here in a long time, mostly cause no one reads it, and its a waste of time for teenage girl with little friends thats in band, and not liked by alot of ppl. u know i really wish i wasnt a freshman. i really wish i could go back in time and not do all the annoying things ive done to make some ppl not like me. or i wish i could go back in time and not tell him that i like him alot. cause that was a stupid mistake. he is a senior, he is popular, everybody likes him, he is nice, he is sweet, he is super cute, and wayyyyy tooo good for me. obviously, i dont even know why i thought i had a chance. its stupid of me to think that. im going to a counsler now, though im not sure how long that will last cause well its weird and i have too much pride for that. even if i am “depressed” i dont want to see a counsler. to me it seems pathetic. and i dont want to be pathetic, my friends tell me, that they think its ridiculas that i have to go because of him, which it is, but whatever

~ by nicoledufner on February 24, 2009.